And you can tell me what’s wrong with me, and why i have severe mood swings all of a sudden, and acting violent towards people i care about.

Okay, first off, i was born in 1992. My mom was 19, and my dad was in his mid 20s. My dad was a drug addict and alcoholic, but my mom wasn’t. I had to grow up hearing them argue and verbally/physically fight all the time, even though they didn’t live together and didn’t go out. One time when i was about 4, my parents were arguing on christmas eve, and i yelled for them to be quiet so santa could come. My dad came into my room and told me to shut the hell up, because santa wasn’t real. Then another time, i told my dad i hated him, and he replied back "i hate you too" and slammed my door. I’ve had to grow up hearing my parents have sex, which is so disturbing to hear your parents have sex. My dad raped my mom in front of me, he hit her in front of me, and yelled at both of us. My mom was young in the 90s, so on the weekends, she dropped me off at granny’s house so she could go party with her friends. I’m way closer to my granny because she basically raised me when i was young cause mom was never home. Both of my parents have been addicted to crack cocaine and alcohol (my mom has been clean for 6 years, but my dad still uses). My granny was physically abused by her husband (my grandpa) in the 70s, and when i was little in the 90s, they used to argue alot in front of me. I started liking girls when i was 5, and i had my first kiss with a girl when i was 5. I used to get beat up everyday in preschool by a girl who i would later discover was my cousin. I then transfered to an elementary school where the majority was whites, and in kindergarten, these twins wouldn’t invite me to their B-day party because i was "colored". I basically had no real friends until 1st grade when these 2 black twins came to my school. I started having a crush on one of them, but they left in 2nd grade. I didn’t have a real friend until 5th grade, when this family moved to my city. I met this girl, who would eventually become my best friend. We’re still best friends now as seniors. When i went to middle school, i fell in love with this hispanic girl, and everyone found out. I was teased and beat up for the rest of the year, and i was suicidal twice that year. Then 7th grade was boring, and in 8th grade i did track and basketball. I came to high school, and freshman year was fun. 10th grade was okay, and 11th grade was good too. Now i’m going to be a senior next fall, but i am starting to have severe mood swings, and i’m thinking/acting violently. As you probably figured, i’m a lesbian, and when you become a teen, hormones start going crazy. My best friend is starting to notice guys, and i’m getting very jealous. I yell at her, and grab her arm telling her she better not talk to no guys while i’m her friend. I have dreams about hitting her and telling her she’s mine, and she’ll never talk to anyone unless i say so. We used to be very close, but now everytime we hang out, it’s akward, and i end up yelling at her and calling her out of her name. Also, my family is trying to pressure me to get a boyfriend, but i don’t want one. And my mom really wants me to have kids, but i don’t want kids. I’m joining the military, which my family is also opposed too. I have dreams about hurting people, but i want them to stop.

So there’s my life in a nutshell. What do you think my problem is? Why am i having mood swings and acting violent towards people? Do you think i need therapy?

And you can tell me what’s wrong with me, and why i have severe mood swings all of a sudden, and acting violent towards people i care about.

Okay, first off, i was born in 1992. My mom was 19, and my dad was in his mid 20s. My dad was a drug addict and alcoholic, but my mom wasn’t. I had to grow up hearing them argue and verbally/physically fight all the time, even though they didn’t live together and didn’t go out. One time when i was about 4, my parents were arguing on christmas eve, and i yelled for them to be quiet so santa could come. My dad came into my room and told me to shut the hell up, because santa wasn’t real. Then another time, i told my dad i hated him, and he replied back "i hate you too" and slammed my door. I’ve had to grow up hearing my parents have sex, which is so disturbing to hear your parents have sex. My dad raped my mom in front of me, he hit her in front of me, and yelled at both of us. My mom was young in the 90s, so on the weekends, she dropped me off at granny’s house so she could go party with her friends. I’m way closer to my granny because she basically raised me when i was young cause mom was never home. Both of my parents have been addicted to crack cocaine and alcohol (my mom has been clean for 6 years, but my dad still uses). My granny was physically abused by her husband (my grandpa) in the 70s, and when i was little in the 90s, they used to argue alot in front of me. I started liking girls when i was 5, and i had my first kiss with a girl when i was 5. I used to get beat up everyday in preschool by a girl who i would later discover was my cousin. I then transfered to an elementary school where the majority was whites, and in kindergarten, these twins wouldn’t invite me to their B-day party because i was "colored". I basically had no real friends until 1st grade when these 2 black twins came to my school. I started having a crush on one of them, but they left in 2nd grade. I didn’t have a real friend until 5th grade, when this family moved to my city. I met this girl, who would eventually become my best friend. We’re still best friends now as seniors. When i went to middle school, i fell in love with this hispanic girl, and everyone found out. I was teased and beat up for the rest of the year, and i was suicidal twice that year. Then 7th grade was boring, and in 8th grade i did track and basketball. I came to high school, and freshman year was fun. 10th grade was okay, and 11th grade was good too. Now i’m going to be a senior next fall, but i am starting to have severe mood swings, and i’m thinking/acting violently. As you probably figured, i’m a lesbian, and when you become a teen, hormones start going crazy. My best friend is starting to notice guys, and i’m getting very jealous. I yell at her, and grab her arm telling her she better not talk to no guys while i’m her friend. I have dreams about hitting her and telling her she’s mine, and she’ll never talk to anyone unless i say so. We used to be very close, but now everytime we hang out, it’s akward, and i end up yelling at her and calling her out of her name. Also, my family is trying to pressure me to get a boyfriend, but i don’t want one. And my mom really wants me to have kids, but i don’t want kids. I’m joining the military, which my family is also opposed too. I have dreams about hurting people, but i want them to stop.

So there’s my life in a nutshell. What do you think my problem is? Why am i having mood swings and acting violent towards people? Do you think i need therapy?